Another New Chapter

HICOM Shah Alam * November 2015

I cannot be 100% convincing when it comes to justifying my three relatively short employments for this mere two years plus of work life.
I think, it's because I'm always tired when it comes to explaining myself. If you're sitting here with an open mind, with the desire to understand and care for me, you'll accept my reasoning. I grow up learning perception is never something good.

I still have the fear in me, the attack of eczema once I started working on hospitality line. It's like depression, narcolepsy and other diseases. You can't really understanding if you're not experiencing it. You can never empathize if you have a perceptive mind.

Offering sympathy is lowering others' self-worthiness to make yourself look good. If you have yet to know the difference between sympathy and empathy, I recommend watching this.

There's this one time when my friend commented that I'm reflecting and blaming on myself too much. I must admit that I'm still finding my self-worthiness and yet to become a confident lady. The self-reflection part though, I'm proud for the habit of doing so.

Self-reflection allows balance to happen. It stops you from putting all responsibilities to others. It helps you to be accountable and take charge when it's necessary. It helps you to see the whole situation better, from a different perspective. What's more, it allows you to put yourself on other people's shoes, which does not only help you to understand people, it helps you to be aware of the real situation. Because, at times, it might not be solely your wrong-doing.

What goes around, comes around.

I smile

On the way home, with my head filled with the dilemma which has been bothering me for a few days.

Admiring the sky, I post a snapchat on the sky at the traffic light stop.
We are blessed with a sky without haze after few weeks of lung-killing hazy days. The haze was so serious the school kids were able to skip a few days of school. (Why did I only get one day back then?) (Just kidding... Please someone with authority and power do something about the Indonesia forest fire!)

I then switch focus to the sky, hoping to relief the facial muscle from all the thoughts in my brain. Looking across, I notice the clouds ahead is with a few downward strokes, almost like it's raining there. A strike of lightning hit somewhere at the side of the road where I just drove by, followed by a loud storm.

I was expecting this, but the highway road was then attacked by heavy down pour for about a stretch of 1km. All cars immediately slow down. I was at the fast lane by I was driving at the speed of near 30km/hr, almost like I'm not stepping on the accelerator!

The radio was playing my copy of Christmas songs by Michael Buble.
It was near sunset.
Road ahead was blurred with heavy rain.
It's a chilly temperature and I smile.
:)